Ode to Jen

It's hard to believe that November 8 marked Jen and my one year anniversary. 

This is huge.

This song reminds me of Jen...It's kind of always been our song...since it's one of the few we agree on, ha :)

She's recently turned me on to this song:

I remember hearing this song with her back in the very beginning...this is a FABULOUS SONG...

It's impossible to hear that song and not think about her and how wicked great she is.

Dear Jen,

I remember sitting down at the computer (back in the days when I was addicted to myspace and NOT blogger...) I wasn't in the mood to go to mom's to use the computer, so I had logged into grandma's computer, using Juno of all things.  Yay, dial up... New messages... SCORE! excitement.  Who is this chick... I asked myself. 

The message you sent said something to the extent of how beautiful I am (hello, compliments, flattery... quickest way into my pants--ha) I checked your profile before responding... it didn't say whether you were gay or straight and I saw pics of a kid and wedding photos but no groom (I was confused)... and I remember asking, "So what's your story" (after thanking you of course)--it was my politically correct way of saying, so are you a dyke or what....

I soon figured it out.  I found myself in a shitty situation where I had just asked the current to be my girlfriend after months of being pissed off and irritated at her constant pot smoking and weather channel watching...and I remember laying in bed next to her at the beach house and not being able to think of anything but you... (I hadn't even met you)...it was innocent. You were no homewrecker and were content in just being friends... Later that week I broke up with her... I feel like you always feel like it was your fault.  But in reality it was just a matter of time before it happened.  I wasn't happy and I didn't trust her.... Within a matter of a week or two we were both fighting with the desire to tell the other those three words... "I love you."

We both knew that it wasn't "natural" to fall that quickly...we tried to be logical but yeah, we said fuck it and took a chance.  Both of us guarded and craving the other like that attention would go out of style...

What a great decision we made.

Remember the beginning?

Wasn't that the first trip to meet my folks?

 

I fell in love with lil man early on as well... That long hair kills me... and remember how long your finger nails were... you soon graduated to "real" lesbian status, not porn lesbo, hahaha

 Our first trip to Hatteras, NC

What a good New Year we had...

I love how even my family LOVES you... they just can't get over how I'm my true self around you (they are in awe that you can still love me considering, hell so am I)

Having a blast at my brother's house... my shaved head seems so long ago...I love that we can laugh so much and at the most random things

I love how your lips fit perfectly against mine... how your lips are always soft and never chapped and the fact that you are phenomenal kisser...

Playing dress up...I again will go on the record and state that I LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair short... you're a friggin' hottie and I love how you pretend to not know it, ha ha

At AJ Gators after you got out of work.... (obviously you see that these photos, like my thoughts aren't exactly flowing in any particular order....)

Rawrrrrr.....

A girl after my own heart...

Yes...those boobs were smooshed against my face a lil bit after this picture....hahah (nothing like a quickie in the bathroom in the middle of a going away party....)

Post quickie (that's a glow, we aren't oily, haha)

Hehe...then this weekend...god you are such a goof ball :) Luckily your tongue sticks out farther than it does in this picture hahah...

The most recent picture of us, from this weekend....

What it boils down to is that there is never a dull moment with you.  I love how we can just lay in bed together and talk or saying nothing at all and still communicate. I love how your skin feels against mine... I love the sound of your voice and how you try and make things all better when I'm upset, emotional, or just down right bat shit crazy.

I can't even find the words to describe how I truly feel.  I just hope that I do a good enough job of showing you EVERY SINGLE DAY... I never want you to feel under appreciated.  I am so lucky to have you in my life.  I'm happy you found me :) lol. I never thought I'd find someone that could be my rock... I pretend to be hard core and unbreakable, but as you have found I am not made of stone and I wear my heart on my sleeve...THANK YOU.

I look forward to many more great years ahead...

I love you A LOT.