Anniversary Weekend Picture Highlights (Day 2)

 

Baby Charley practices her gangsta lean on the beach with Mandi :)

 

Jen and lil man (mid air)

 

His mom is gonna have her hands full in a few years

Me and mom

 

Jen was loving the sand...

 

Did I mention I LOVE THE BEACH

 

I can't believe she has been able to put up with me THIS LONG... this is ground breaking :)

  

Kitty Hawk Kites... I dunno, just liked this pic... and there's the vagyna mobile in front... :)

 

the Mouse Trap.. I've always loved this cottage, it's one of the first houses when you hit Rodanthe, NC, but...WAY too close to the water

 

hello atlantic ocean...

 

Help I've fallen and I can't get up

 

I look way too serious here...

Anniversary Weekend Picture Highlights (Day 1)

 

Getting ready in the morning, I was attacked by lil man and pepper...ha

We made it down to Salvo, NC (on Hatteras Island) Friday night about 8 or 9.... We unwound and got ready for bed...watched a couple of movies and just relaxed.  It was friggin' freezing.  Saturday morning we woke up, took our time getting ready and decided to take a trip to Ocracoke, NC (which requires a 40 min ferry ride) and what not... We were off... Jen, lil man, Mandi, the baby, and myself... I was excited.

I didn't realize that Jen had never been on a ferry ride and when I looked at her and gasped, "REALLY?!?!?" She was quick to remind me that they had no real need for ferries where she was from, since it was all mountains and all...Oh yeah...my bad... so this made me even more stoked to share with her and lil man.

 

 Jen was lookin' fierce as always...

 

These are lil cottages you can rent... they are on a little side street called Eagle Pass right before you get to the ferry to go to Ocracoke...they always make me smile :)

 

This one was lil man's favorite... I might have to check out renting one of these someday, when I have money of course.

 
 

On the ferry... lil man was loving it... Jen loved it too overall, but the waves made her head hurt after a while :(

 
 

I love this picture.  The weather was beautiful, mid 70s that day and just sunny and awesome... I was happy to see how both Jen and lil man really dug the ferry experience.

 
 

The fam, lol... I'm glad Mandi went too... she had a good time with us, but was also cool enough to play photographer so I have some pics with all three of us instead of all of them just one or the other

 
 

Really Jen?, lol

 

HEEEEEYYYYY!!!

 

He said he could see our house, and the zoo, and some giraffes, and a shark (I didn't have any quarters for him to see anything, but hey, at least we know his imagination works :)

 
 

The water from behind he ferry

 
 

Can we discuss the fact that Lil man is straight chillin' in this pic, ha

 
 

Tell me those two aren't having a blast...

 
 

Ferry ride back...

 

I love this picture

 
 

We've decided that these ladies are lesbians, for the simple fact that I think it'd be a cool lesbo job to have :) This was a ferry that was docking next to us while we were getting ready to go

 
 

Two guesses as to who had the time of his life :O)

 

It cracks Jen up to hear me say Chicamacomico (Chica- mah- com-eeh-co) 

 
 

I love this picture as well...damn I'm good, ha

 
 

Day one draws to a close...

We all ate at Howard's Pub on Ocracoke Island, I love their burgers, Jen fell in love with the fries... When we got back to the beach house, lil man decided that he wanted to stay with  my mom ... so Jen and I took the opportunity from some alone time and for our anniversary dinner we went to Lisa's Pizzaria (sounds classy huh)...I can't help it, Jen is now hooked on their Fried Broccoli... it was her pick :) It was a great day. We talked and held hands and laughed and smiled, and cuddled (though ended up having to sleep in separate beds because the old school mattress dumped her in the crack next to the wall everytime I moved (and I'm a tosser and turner)... ha, plus Pepper is a bed hog.

While we were in Ocracoke earlier in the day, I finally found the shop that I had been to years before that had a lil silver pelican charm that I wanted... Jen bought it for me which I thought was AWESOME... it was meant to be, me and that pelican... now I just have to get a chain.

Jen asked me what the deal with me and pelican was and I explained to her while we were sitting on the beach the following the day that I just love how they are graceful and elegant when in the air... but how when they land or attempt to catch a fish in the water are often the most uncoordinated, clumsy, hot mess you've ever seen... simply put--I can relate :)  She laughed and said she could understand how I saw the correlation :) hehe.

I'm so in love with this woman.  It's amazing to me how even when we stay at the beach with my mom, aunt, uncle, sister, and neice, plus four dogs, we can still manage to have a great time and feel at ease, and not want to leave at the end of the weekend.  I'm lucky to have had this getaway my whole life (it used to be grandma's and now it's my parents...) it's not fancy or elaborate, one story and two bedrooms, quaint... but its ours... and I'm lucky to have jen to share it with.  I love how she has fallen in love with the things that I myself have enjoyed for as long as I can remember... to think... before me, she had never even truly seen the ocean :) Now she's a beach bum addict like me :)

More photos to come.

Ode to Jen

It's hard to believe that November 8 marked Jen and my one year anniversary. 

This is huge.

This song reminds me of Jen...It's kind of always been our song...since it's one of the few we agree on, ha :)

She's recently turned me on to this song:

I remember hearing this song with her back in the very beginning...this is a FABULOUS SONG...

It's impossible to hear that song and not think about her and how wicked great she is.

Dear Jen,

I remember sitting down at the computer (back in the days when I was addicted to myspace and NOT blogger...) I wasn't in the mood to go to mom's to use the computer, so I had logged into grandma's computer, using Juno of all things.  Yay, dial up... New messages... SCORE! excitement.  Who is this chick... I asked myself. 

The message you sent said something to the extent of how beautiful I am (hello, compliments, flattery... quickest way into my pants--ha) I checked your profile before responding... it didn't say whether you were gay or straight and I saw pics of a kid and wedding photos but no groom (I was confused)... and I remember asking, "So what's your story" (after thanking you of course)--it was my politically correct way of saying, so are you a dyke or what....

I soon figured it out.  I found myself in a shitty situation where I had just asked the current to be my girlfriend after months of being pissed off and irritated at her constant pot smoking and weather channel watching...and I remember laying in bed next to her at the beach house and not being able to think of anything but you... (I hadn't even met you)...it was innocent. You were no homewrecker and were content in just being friends... Later that week I broke up with her... I feel like you always feel like it was your fault.  But in reality it was just a matter of time before it happened.  I wasn't happy and I didn't trust her.... Within a matter of a week or two we were both fighting with the desire to tell the other those three words... "I love you."

We both knew that it wasn't "natural" to fall that quickly...we tried to be logical but yeah, we said fuck it and took a chance.  Both of us guarded and craving the other like that attention would go out of style...

What a great decision we made.

Remember the beginning?

Wasn't that the first trip to meet my folks?

 

I fell in love with lil man early on as well... That long hair kills me... and remember how long your finger nails were... you soon graduated to "real" lesbian status, not porn lesbo, hahaha

 Our first trip to Hatteras, NC

What a good New Year we had...

I love how even my family LOVES you... they just can't get over how I'm my true self around you (they are in awe that you can still love me considering, hell so am I)

Having a blast at my brother's house... my shaved head seems so long ago...I love that we can laugh so much and at the most random things

I love how your lips fit perfectly against mine... how your lips are always soft and never chapped and the fact that you are phenomenal kisser...

Playing dress up...I again will go on the record and state that I LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair short... you're a friggin' hottie and I love how you pretend to not know it, ha ha

At AJ Gators after you got out of work.... (obviously you see that these photos, like my thoughts aren't exactly flowing in any particular order....)

Rawrrrrr.....

A girl after my own heart...

Yes...those boobs were smooshed against my face a lil bit after this picture....hahah (nothing like a quickie in the bathroom in the middle of a going away party....)

Post quickie (that's a glow, we aren't oily, haha)

Hehe...then this weekend...god you are such a goof ball :) Luckily your tongue sticks out farther than it does in this picture hahah...

The most recent picture of us, from this weekend....

What it boils down to is that there is never a dull moment with you.  I love how we can just lay in bed together and talk or saying nothing at all and still communicate. I love how your skin feels against mine... I love the sound of your voice and how you try and make things all better when I'm upset, emotional, or just down right bat shit crazy.

I can't even find the words to describe how I truly feel.  I just hope that I do a good enough job of showing you EVERY SINGLE DAY... I never want you to feel under appreciated.  I am so lucky to have you in my life.  I'm happy you found me :) lol. I never thought I'd find someone that could be my rock... I pretend to be hard core and unbreakable, but as you have found I am not made of stone and I wear my heart on my sleeve...THANK YOU.

I look forward to many more great years ahead...

I love you A LOT.

For the record

I am alive.  I have decided to boycott work for the rest of the day (except for a short time needed to update a spreadsheet or two).  You see, it had been a friggin' week since I read or wrote a blog and dammit it was stressing me out.  I need to blog to survive...it's just how I roll. 

Considering that Southeast VA (aka Va Beach and inland areas) are getting smashed with a freakin' noreaster at the moment and the weather is shitty with 50mph wind gusts that nearly carry my big ass away...I'm just refusing to work. It's not just that...it's the rumor that they are closing the warehouse at 2:30 this afternoon that's also contributing. AND the fact that I am in business casual attire because I was scheduled for some additional training at the main office in Chesapeake (they have a strict dress code that resembles nothing like I normally rock in the warehouse)... but due to the weather, flooding and multiple road closures I'm not going...

It all boils down to me being fucking tired of every single person in the warehouse commenting on what I'm wearing...I can only handle so many "ooooh gotta a hot date dontcha..." "wow, what are you all dressed up for..." and creepy guys on equipment doing drive by speed so they can check my ass out in my pin stripe slacks that IVE NEVER ACTUALLY FIT BEFORE... yeah this should make me feel good, but it's more annoying than anything.  Some of the looks I'm getting are making me feel like some of these dudes are "trying on my woman suit..." and Id just prefer wearing my own skin, not lending it out. 

I've officially read most of the blogs I was behind on...if I missed something I apologize...and I have some fabulous ones planned... I mean HELLO...I JUST HAD A ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY WEEKEND for pete's sake and it was FANFUCKINGTASTIC i tell you :) More blogs to come.  I'm watching lil man this evening and plan on making use of jen's wireless before I have to call it a night and go to bed for another early ass yucky morning.

My hair is currently dark brown, and I cut it again...I don't even think I told jen I cut it, ha...I did it myself this time which reminds me why i never pay for haircuts, they either fuck it up, or I redo it a few days later...I'm thinking I might go platinum blonde if I have time this weekend...we'll see.

Side note I chipped a sliver off of one of my front teeth WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ALL ABOUT... now there is a jagged feel and sharp edge (it's not noticeable to anyone but me...but damn)

An oldie but a goodie, ha

This is my new favorite song.  It reminds me a lot of Jen for some reason and just makes me wanna dance... I'm all about that...especially when in the car and driving on the country roads :)

David Guetta ft. Akon: Sexy Chick (unedited--Sexy Bitch)



I've also been really feeling this old school hit :)-- Edie Brickell and the new bohemians: What I am

"Philosophy is a walk on the slippery rocks, Religion, a smile on a dog...."

I don't know too many things, I know what I know if you know what I mean...

While I was out

I fell off the face of the earth for a few days...time to play catch up.

Friday I had a day from hell and a training class that lasted entirely too long.  Normally, four hours tops... that day 8... and this guy still couldn't follow directions and learn to operate a walkie rider (motorized pallet jack with a platform you stand on to ride)... in the end I finally called it a day and assigned him to an area that required no equipment... he would have tore so much shit up in the warehouse had I pretended all was okay...but I can't do shit like that on a good conscience, karma is a bitch you know.

After finishing training it was time to fire people.  Ended up firing six... per the request of the client.  Fucking ridiculous in my opinion, but hey, what do I know?  The shitty part is that I fired someone and then when questioning it later, which prompted my boss to reach out to the ops manager for a professional WTF? He explained that he had given us the wrong name.  WHAT? Yes, that's right.  I fired the wrong fucking person on a friday... that is the type of shit that makes people go postal, you know.  Well I call that guy and apologize for the confusion, explaining that he had been confused with someone else... I could have said anything at this point... the guy was happy to not be fired but now sees me as being a total dumbass who doesn't know my ass from my eyeball (despite the noticeable difference in size and texture)...

Bunch of fucking no nothing dumbasses.... but i digress.

I hung out with lil man on friday after my day from hell.  Got up ass early Saturday morning and came to work to take roll.  Got back home and woke lil man up to pee (we are trying to help him prevent accidents)... at which point he did not go back to sleep but from 6:45 am on asked every 20 minutes if it was time to go trick or treating yet.   Jen worked a day shift so that she could trick or treating with all of us... Me, lil man, mom, mandi and baby charley....

 

  

That's Earl (Pepper's BFF...and technically my lil brother, lol) He was not amused being dressed as a Pirate.

 

Mom and lil man on a mission

Turns out that lil man isn't so much a fan of trick or treating after all... a lot of the costumes and people jumping out from random places scared the bejeezus out of him so we headed home early. I made whole wheat pancakes which are actually fabulous with a lil vanilla extract and some splenda... I cussed out grandma (see my other blog for details on that...)--I'm already going to hell quick enough on my own without retelling that story...

Afterwards, Gma held baby charley:

 

She's just a cutie...

 

So Sunday I woke up in a shitty mood and misread signals from Jen and ended up showing my ass.  Jen went home with lil man and we took some quality time to ourselves.... later that evening we had a nice long talk and effectively communicated (an area we both agree we need improvement from time to time...) Kissed and made up via telephone.  Sidenote: we are much better at saying how we feel and what's on our minds...it seems like before we were way too concerned with how the other would react or what they might potentially feel... after cussing out grandma, it turns out that this sense of liberation I'm experiencing is helping my communication as well :)

Jen and I will hit our One year on Sunday...the one coming up.  She had made reservations at a bed and breakfast near Williamsburg... (funny that I tried to do the same thing but was B-R-O-K-E....hell I'm considering graduate school just to put off student loans that are fast approaching due)... but we opted to cancel... We are instead going to go down to Hatteras, NC and enjoy some waves and perhaps even some fall surf fishing... drum are biting this time of year (not that it matters since I don't really eat fish...) I just wanna cuddle with her and drink hot chocolate and put my feet in the cool sand and smell that sea air.

I have a few ideas in my head of some alone time things we can do when we are down there.... mom, uncle john, aunt melissa, and potentially mandi and charley will be down there as well...so I'm curious to see how much alone time is actually feasible--but we can still have a good time... just being at the beach is good enough and being with jen of course... It's funny...hatteras has been my favorite place since I was a kid... it's one of Jen's now too even though she's only been a few times, lil man's too... I'm thinking of showing her some new parts of the island...we'll see.

Apparently, Tuesday is my new monday as "field hockey" so eloquently put it.  I just don't feel like doing shit at work today. I got what I needed to get done done...but I could have done a lot more. Fuck it... just one of those days. 

I lost a few more pounds this last week and was so excited that I got into my favorite pair of jeans without sucking it in and noticed they were even starting to get loose in some areas that I left my fucking cell phone on the bathroom counter. What is this world coming to.  I feel naked.

I changed my haircolor the other day, but still have some tweaking to do.  As soon as I get it "just right" I'll put pics up (per Jude's request, lol)...