She called me out

Okay so I had a revelation last night (well not really, Jen called me out...but it's something I had been aware of for a while). Even though I gave up soda and what not all I've really done is find a sugar substitute. By substitute I don't mean Splenda, or equal or sweet n low...nope...that would be too smart...too easy...I mean POPSICLES. Lol.

Those wonderfully delightful frozen treats...you cut the top off and push them up and enjoy what awaits you (essentially frozen sugar water, lol). I wasn't going to do Hip Hop Abs last night, but at the last minute opted to (only to make it difficult to fall asleep because I was all "pumped up" and not so much in relax mode any longer)... I'm still glad I did it. I had Jen measure me and while neither one of us think we are measuring accurately....but it seems that I've already lost about 4 and half inches off of my bottom half (though I might have gained an inch or two up top) HA..I don't freaking know. I feel better when I do it thats the important thing.

Now if I can lay off the sugar for a while I'll be in real good shape. Whats the moral of this morning's most random you ask? I need to buy the stuff to start making my own popsicles. Lol. The question is do I finish off the ones that are left in the freezer as to not be wasteful or just give them to my brother and his girlfriends kid? Ugh...decisions decisions.

I'm kind of boring myself always talking about hip hop abs or soda or sugar or whatever...but its weird its like you alter your lifestyle to try and make healthier decisions and you become more aware of the situation at hand. I don't want the concept of weight loss to consume my life in terms of conversation and what not...I still want to be able to function in a group with other topics and what not...I dunno...it's difficult to explain.

Oh well...I need to do some work. I was a few minutes late this morning. I almost called out, I had two excuses to choose from. But since I couldn't choose between a case of "anal glaucoma" (not being able to see my ass going to work) or merely surviving monday I figured I might as well come in...its not like I have sick time to take advantage of and I need as many hours as I can get.