a horrific day

So I had a shitty day today and it wasn't just because it was Monday.  Long story short I now work for a company whose warehouse division has been deemed inadequate (the division that I'm now a supervisor in) "we" are fucking things up left and right in the eyes of many.  I've worked for places where shit happened and a solution had to be found QUICK.  Well what I'm finding is that due to some people being inadequate in their position, a chain reaction has been caused.  I'm not laying blame on one person specifically by any means.  I even own the fact that when I pull orders I have been known to not send the correct amount (as in, if I need 512 bags of product and that equals 13 cases and I have say 15 cases on a pallet, hell yeah... I'll send the whole pallet)

I've learned my lesson though because this did nothing but create more work for me and my team in the long run.  Back to the shitty day though-- Today was a shipping day.  We were supposed to ship the 2nd wave of a particular customers order out... this is a BIG account.  Well the only thing that went out was Water plants... (only about 1/4 of the total shipment) You see that what had happened was.... some of the plants/packages produced in house were put in the wrong bags.  To fix this a label was made to put over the "wrong" directions that were preprinted on said bag... well the big wigs including the VP of sales who in a normal situation should never really step foot in the warehouse is going to be coming out into the warehouse tomorrow and doing a check of every single rack that was supposed to go out today to ensure that the appropriate label is on EVERY SINGLE box.

Big deal right? Um... if anything is fucked up on this shipment this customer is pulling their business... so yeah BIG FUCKING DEAL....SERIOUS SHIT....This means that worse case scenario EVERYONE could be fired and they could choose to start from scratch.

I'm kind of pissed though because I'm being reemed for shit that really isn't my fault (and so is the other new guy in shipping) but because I'm part of the team....EVERYONE IS AT FAULT.  Blah...

I dunno...I know that tomorrow is going to be hell...this whole week really...we are now behind in shipping which is pushing us behind for the rest of the week.  I just wish shit was more organized and I worked with more accountable people...or that they'd get rid of the folks that are fucking shit up before we all get escorted out of the building.

Ugh.  Breathing....breathing....

Productivity increases...

I still havent joined the gym. I'm down a total of 26 pounds now since starting (and then slightly giving up on my weight loss goals)... like November I think...

I finally sat down this evening and applied to consolidate all of my student loans (an estimated 49,000 will cost me about $96000 over the next 25 years if approved)...ridiculous.

I initiated the talk today with Jen.  The one where I mentioned to her and tried to get a feel for her thoughts on us moving in together.  It's not going to happen tomorrow or anything... this summer is the plan.  Details still need to be worked out.  We both want to be closer to our jobs, I'm freaking because I don't know how much I can actually afford in rent with all my other bills, but I feel like its time to grow up and make it work... I can't live with grandma much longer.  The summer will be the perfect time...lil man will be out of school and visiting his grandparents or dad... all the moving can take place, she can move him to a new school district if necessary and we can get everything set up.  I'd love to find an inexpensive lil house to rent with a fenced in back yard for Pepper...but I don't know if that's feasible or not.  Time will tell.  The important thing is that for the first time in my life... I feel certain of my decision in bringing this up.  I dunno it's hard to explain my feelings right now... plus I'm rushing because I need to get all these random thoughts out of my head and get to bed... I have to work in the am...

My eyes are burning.  I didn't sleep well last night. I keep having these random nightmares and pepper was being a damn bed hog.  Go figure.  I didn't watch the Superbowl... I havent watched a single football game this season, why would I start now..I don't even care about the commercials... guess that makes me a bad american or something

The director of operations at work thinks hes getting fired and has basically said that the rate we are going we will all be replaced.  The warehouse department is seeming to be inadequate and more time is being spent fixing shit than just doing it right the first time... this is scary... but I'm just hoping that shit will fix itself or that we can correct shit before it hits the fan... I dunno what else to say about any of it...

I did my taxes the other day. I owe Virginia $3... can you believe that shit.  I went ahead and paid them only because the one year I neglected to file with VA they sent me a bill stating I owed like 700 bucks according to their estimates...I filed and they ended up owing me 35... wankers.

I've been living in snow/rain hell...the snow part is uncommon for Coastal VA... to say the least.  Last weekend we ended up getting about 7 inches and life stopped for most of the area... hell lil man didn't go back to school until Thursday (the snow fell on Friday/Saturday...) crazy... I hate snow. We had flurries again this weekend but nothing crucial or life threatening...this time it was northern VA and DC that got it... record snowfall from what I understand. 

I have so much stuff to get out tonight and not enough time to do it... judging my the smell leaking from Pepper's ass...it's time to take her out and call it a night...

Perhaps I'll have time to get caught up... I'm not counting on it though... blah blah blah

Jungle Joose.

Tonight I found myself tallying the hours spent at work thus far... I came up with 63.  I have a minimum of 24 hours more to work between tomorrow and Sunday.  Yes, Sunday.  Who knew that flower bulbs could be this serious?  Inventory is chaos.  Jude asked the other day if I could get any help from inventory control... the problem is, I am inventory control.  This place is always going to be chaotic but there needs to be a level of control--that's what's lacking.

Give a lil bit...give a lil bit of your life to me... (sorry that was in a movie that I'm watching...lol.)

I'm tired of bitching about work...seems like all I do lately.  I need a break from bitching.

I took Jen to dinner tonight.  I hadnt seen her in a week... I'm always tired and my feet hurt...etc...(no I haven't been to the doctor, haven't had time with work, plus no insurance)-- it's gotten to the point a couple of days where I considered the emergency room they hurt so bad.  But there I go again, back on my "downer" ways.

I haven't been to the gym, or consolidated my student loans and I missed (kind of on purpose) the application deadline to apply for the MBA program I'm interested in.

I stopped on the way home and bought a JOOSE.  For anyone whose never experienced it, I recommend experiencing it at least once in your life time.  It's a flavored Malt Beverage that is available at most gas stations that sell alcohol, lol, it shouldn't cost your more than three bucks, unless your state just has a seriously high tax rate...I'm drinking the green one, called Jungle JOOSE, lol... it says, "premium malt beverage with natural flavors, taurine, ginseng, caffeine, etc... so yeah it's like an alcoholic energy drink... probably not good for you but totally rocking my world for right now.

My computer is running hot tonight, it's burning my lap.

I won't get to see Jen this weekend, which means that my stress levels are going to be even higher due to the level of sexual frustration I'm rocking.  I'm mean shit, a girl can rub her own til it's raw, but it's never as good as it is with someone you love :) hehe...

I'm really trying to not give myself an anneurism over this job. I really am, I'm trying to "go with the flow" but I haven't figured it all out yet... it's not hard, it really isn't, but... they make it difficult...

dammit...I can't seem to get off that topic.

I bought a new wax warmer tonight-- I'm way behind on my facial upkeep which means that I'm rocking several bristly whiskers on my chin, neck, cheeks, my brows are a hot mess... I'm past due for a hair cut... but who has the time... and who am I trying to impress.

I told my boss that I had a long standing appointment on Monday and that I needed to leave at 2:30 in the afternoon.  Not a lie, I have an appointment... I need to get my car inspected and the hours I'm working--theres no time.. I'm not in the mood to pay any tickets for dumb shit... ya know.  Then I'm going to do my ex boss/mom's hair... then back to normal Tuesday... work. blah.

I'd like to win the lottery this evening... catch a case of anal glaucoma and never see my ass going to work ever again... haha.

I got on the scales this morning and I'm down another five pounds...though I'm not sure how since my new found old habit of fast food ALLL the time because I'm too fucking tired and my feet hurt too bad to cook whenever I get home.  I worked from 7a to 10:15p on Wednesday... RIDICULOUS.

I just finished watching the Invention of lying... I cried during the previews.  Funny.  Jen commented at dinner how I was way butch these days... Haven't wore makeup in a long while, dirt under my fingernails, I'm getting some serious "guns" from lifting crates of bulbs and shit all day... Jeans, boots, etc... I'm sooooooo different (sort of) compared to how she's used to seeing me :) lol. Funny. I don't really know how to label myself...I have moments for everything it seems.  But what it boils down to is that of all things I'm probably a whiny bitchy girl despite saying or telling myself that I'm not.

Whatever.

I have a fabulous body buzz right now... God I need to drink Joose more often..>I'm such a light weight though...I only drank half of this drink...and I'm comfy... The time I drank two of these in a night I ended up with a lesbian with missing teeth whisperin/yelling in my ear something about her place, a plastic shower curtain, baby oil and an air conditioner??? and I took the lime out of her mouth after a tequilla shot she bought me...My sister has yet to let me live this down... she sat across the table mouth agape looking at me like WTF dude, before you started drinking you commented on her missing teeth... (which I had...I said something to the affect of, if her mouth looks like that I'm scared what her pussy would do to me...) yes I'm a hater... don't judge me.

Oh I wish I could stay up late and sleep in all day... not an option...it's passed my bedtime...I've done no laundry so I'll be getting creative in what to wear tomorrow...I want to take Pepper for a ride...she hasn't been in the car with me for weeks... poor girl. 

I've made no sense of anything this evening. I hate that I'm a selfish blogger...I havent read anyone's lately (for a long while...) and I'm constantly bitching.  I Mean technically I blog for me, but hello..I miss peering into everyone's life from my side of the world.

Deep breath in...exhale... set alarm, pass out, work work work, no sex, work work work, no sex, work work, lol...NO SEX... dammit...

Not quite what I imagined

I always imagined hitting my 300th blog to feel really accomplished and fantastic.  I remember hitting that 100 mark and thinking, wow...that happened fast...maybe too fast... then came 200 and I debated doing something phenomenal to mark the occasion, but again opted against it--probably because it wasn't uncommon for me to blog my ass off on the regular.

Jen introduced me to blogger.  Before that I had blogged via myspace, but was limited as to what I felt like I could say because "my friends could read it at anytime" and well my "friends" were not necessarily real friends (often coworkers, people from past lives, whatever... and often times the subjects that I wanted to bitch about in the first place)... I ditched the myspace scene for this very reason... That's how Jen found me (as I've mentioned before)... and I just didn't feel the need to keep myself out there for potential drama...or to sound conceited a potential admirer.... haha. (as if)

It was a friend of Jen's that had introduced her to blogger and I'm glad.  I recall being so butt hurt in the beginning...even though I was blogging just to vent and find an outlet, I secretly wanted people to read my stuff and find it interesting or helpful, or funny, or as their own outlet... I longed for someone to sit on their side of the world and think, "man, I can relate to that..." or "what the hell...that's some funny shit, hard to believe, but funny..."

Jen was rather supportive and kept nudging me in a positive fashion to write whatever I was feeling.  She assured me that I would eventually get a following.  She was right.  I went through a phase where I wanted to spend all of my free time blogging...sharing, opening up and publicizing my life... it didn't matter who was reading it... it was therapeutic... Well... things shifted in my life.

Jen was still a happy constant (when I didn't spend my time taking shit out on her that wasn't her fault at all)... She's put up with a lot of my bullshit to say the least.  But I digress.  I got on a health kick and made every effort I could to lose weight.  I shared my successes and bitched about my shortcomings... all while slowly giving up on myself and ultimately quitting weight watchers (this week officially) because of a hectic work schedule and not being able to make it to meetings.  But despite that, I hadn't been counting points for some time...I was regressing and back tracking and even now see the potential of climbing all the way back up to 273 pounds where I started (not all that long ago I might add)... I'm trying to join a gym.  It's one of those 24 hour ones (and with my new schedule is a good thing)...the downside is that their staffed hours fall during times while I'm at work...I can't sign up without a staff member because I need to pay obviously AND get my after hours key card so that I have access to the gym at all times. 

The gym is right across the street from Jen's place and is off the exit I have to pass in order to get home from work or to work...so I'll have no excuse to not work out... I need another outlet... I'm kind of all over the place these days and not in a good way.  I figure taking some of my frustrations out on a elliptical or some type of weights... sounds good anyway.

I finally called one of my student loans after getting a late notice ( I'm 18 days behind on two of them now)... I put one in forebearance, need to call the other one, tell another one that I'm not in school anymore... wait for the grace period to end on the other one (my plan is to consolidate them all)--I got a print out from a third party company or government thing...I dunno...but I owe right under 48 grand.  RIDICULOUS.  I got a phone call from one of the recruiters for Norwich University.  It's a school in Vermont that offers a distance learning MBA program that I would love to do... I'd start in March and would do a one week on campus thing in June of 2011 with the graduation ceremony at the end of the week and would officially be done with the program in August 2011.... But I dont know that I can afford it or not or that I'd be able to really hold down a full time school schedule knowing that there will be three busy seasons before June 2011... the application deadline is tomorrow... I dunno.

Most recently in Tommy world has been my joining facebook.  I could give a crap about facebook itself, but I did get addicted to Farmville.  Then I got Jen addicted to Farmville...she left me in the dust level wise and I lost some interest in it... funny how that works huh... I didn't have internet access for lil over a week, so Jen managed my farm and harvested things for me :) She hated logging in to fertilize my crops and seeing things wilted and dead... I'd much rather get re-addicted to blogging.  I miss reading other folks stuff and i miss writing (writing about things that matter to me or that mean nothing at all...it's all therapeutic)...

I think had I blogged about my frustrations with my new job then my crying at work would have been prevented.  I've worked there for three weeks now.  It was great because my first week I had a long weekend...had New Years Eve and Day off... Made it through that whole following week, a little frustrated and wondering how the hell I was supposed to do all the things that wanted me to when I'm only one person... well it was this previous week, Monday or Tuesday i guess that I finally lost it.  I was upstairs in the Warehouse Managers office and was talking to him about a few things that I thought should be done different to prevent a great deal of the chaos that is being experienced right now.  Trucks come in and product is offloaded.  When I say product, I mean client specific pallets stacked with fifty collapsable crates filled with prepacked bulbs...( ie. begonias, peonies, dahlias, lilies, cannas, callas, etc for Home Depot, Lowes, Roses, Fred Myer etc)... there is more stuff done in house as well...but I digress... well these pallets are recieved in and then put away in the racks.  The racks are my domain.  The problem is that the shipping supervisor was on his way out three days following my and the new shipping supervisors arrival.  The new guy didn't learn things that he should have so the receipt process got fucked for a lack of better words.  Rather than putting the correct locations in the system he used a generic location which equals (anywhere in the fucking warehouse)--that narrows it down.  I spend all my fucking time looking for shit that should be there and isn't...

It's frustrating as hell.  I have to have the inventory pulled so that production can put it on the correct racks and then those racks are shipped out to whatever customer they go to... well this coming week Lowes ships out on Monday...then there are 1400 racks of another company going out Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday (and nothing has been pulled from inventory for this order yet) since I'm still waiting on the people up front to print the job for it so i know what to actually pull...I dunno... this all must sound dull and may not even make sense...but I had had it earlier this past week.  I really was finding it difficult to get out of bed and head to work where I knew I'd spend my day feeling like I was getting raped up the ass.  I can think of more things to do... for sure.

I'm looking foward to mid February when things slow down dramatically and then come march the slow season comes into play...that will last into July... 4 day work weeks and just straight chillin.  I'll have time to implement new processes and prevent more ass raping in future busy seasons....

Right now my feet are killing me.  My plantar fasciitis is RIDICULOUS.  when I walk now, I feel a popping... its like the tendon in the bottom of my foot is tearing.  I ordered some arch braces to help with the pain.  I don't know how I'll actually work out at any gym right now when by the end of the day I can hardly walk... I'll figure it out.  Tomorrow is a new day and I'll be fine.  Things will be where they should be and be smooth sailing... for now... it's late, I need to sleep.  I'm not even going to replant my farmville crops...I'm done.

Greetings from Outer space

Lol...after a couple of emails (Mel and Jude)... and extended case of bloggin' DTs... I thought I'd sign on long enough to let everyone know that I'm A-L-I-V-E and kicking.  That's all I can say for now... but just know that I have intentions of coming back to blog world (after an unexpected hiatus) and sure there is lots of randomness to fill you all in on... but that will have to come tomorrow (perhaps the next day) since this new job is literally kicking my ass. For the record I cried today. Three weeks into this shit and I cried.  I'm not that girl...(yeah right, I always say that... but apparently I am)...

This is my 299th post for the record... that means that my next post, #300 is not going to be for something phenomenal and "new"... its all going to be just a catch up and hey how are things going. I don't know when the hell I'll be able to read over a months worth of everyone's blogs...

Bare with me okay guys :)... I'm coming back dammit, SOON.

The gig

I got the job. I should be more excited than I am (but I am as excited as I can be with everything else going on in my head these days...that's a whole other story)... I didn't think I had done well with the second interview... I met alone with the CEO, a very serious hard to read cat... I left out of there an hour later not sure of anything and most concerned with my response to his questions concerning the amount of "movement" I've had over the last five years of employment.  This company wants long term folks... I explained that I hadn't found the right fit yet.  I said that with my current job I thought I had but it turned out to be (and used the following example): It's like finding the perfect pair of shoes.  The ones you've always wanted, right price, right size, right everything...you try on the the right shoe and BAM... wooohoo... all is great.  You get them home and get dressed to go out for the night...your right shoe goes on without any snags, your left shoe however is a smidgen too tight... that's where I'm at. 

I got the call yesterday from the recruiter/head hunter and she said she had good news, they wanted to verify my address for the offer letter :) Okay...things were looking up, but nothing official.  Today I got a call from the recruiter and she said she emailed me the offer letter.  I checked it and then the real excitement came.  A consistent, exempt salary permanent employee paycheck every two weeks, lol...it boils down to an increase of pay in the neighborhood of seven grand SCORE...but not only that...this company pays 100% of medical, dental, vision, short/long term disability, etc etc and then match 401K at 6% after a year employment.

It feels good to get a job because of hard work and not because of someone you know or whatever...I'm excited.  I kept my boss in the loop the whole way and she may have my replacement in here as soon as Tuesday... I start at the new place on December 28th :)

a quickie

I'm way behind in reading and writing blogs...but I wanted to share my excitement:

1. I finally went and picked up my degree :) It is one expensive piece of paper but I finally have it lol
and
2. I got the 2nd Interview. I go on Wednesday....keep your fingers crossed...thanks for the good luck wishes/emails.

Hope everyone is well

interview

I went to my interview on Monday afternoon and I'm officially in love with this company.  Their warehouse (the one that I saw anyway... the other is in Holland in the Netherlands) has sky lights which means I wouldn't feel like I'm working in a cage.  They are a company that still pays for their employees benefits completely (medical, dental, vision, short/long term disability, etc) they match 401k at 6%...but even more fabulous than that is the near requirement that the employees make suggestions in how to improve the operation.... they emphasize the need for thinking outside the box... the welcomed suggestions won me over.

The interview lasted about an hour and a half and was the most comfortable I've ever felt in an interview.  They seemed impressed with me.  I hope that's the case.  They are trying to fill a vacancy for shipping/receiving supervisor and an inventory control supervisor.  Seems like they were leaning toward the inventory control supervisor for me...time will tell.

I'm supposed to know if I'm being considered and making it to the next round either tomorrow or Thursday.  Keep your fingers crossed and send positive energy my way... if it worked for Jude, maybe it'll work for me :)

I'll keep everyone posted...for now I'm going to get ready for bed...it's chilly out here and I want to snuggle up in the covers.  It's a shame Jen isn't here...she's a great cuddler and a freakin' heating blanket... I've never met someone who puts off so much heat...

Our First Date...

So it's no secret that Jen and I have been together for over a year now...but we kind of did things in a weird fashion... we never really went on any dates...when we first started dating, I worked second shift and she worked in the evenings as well... a lot of time was spent in the late night/early morning hours hanging out and enjoying each others time.  When my schedule changed to first shift... things got a lil more difficult to manage as far as "dating" went.  We talked about penciling in a "date" here and there...Jen mentioned wanting to take me out several times, but it never panned out (no one's fault in particular...) just the way the things were...crazy.  If we had the time, there was no babysitter... anyway, you get the point.

Well last night was my company's christmas party. I wasn't super excited about the thought of it, only because I don't know many people in the company.  Since I work on-site, I never really deal with any of the folks at the main office, plus the Richmond office was coming as well...woohoo??? But, when Jen told me on Thursday night that her boss had approved her for a Friday night off and that she was going, I WAS STOKED.... it was going to be our first date.

Friday night rolled around and I got dressed.  I felt like I looked great, of course looking at some of the pics later, I disagree...but i digress (I just want to be photographed from like the boobs up...) So as I was getting ready and put on my new jeans it dawned on me that I had forgot to have them hemmed and they were way too long...even with my "girl boots" i was going to wear. Shit.

Mom rescued me, though she wasn't impressed by my asking her to just rig the hem with safety pins of all things...ha...

 

After all of the hard times I give Jen about being late, I was 45 minutes late picking her up... despite being late, I had to stop and get her flowers...I mean I had to do this thing right.... this was our first date ya know.

I knocked on the door and she answered and LOOKED FABULOUS in the new shirt I had bought her :)  I was excited.

 

I took pictures of my conceited ass while she went upstairs to get her jacket, lol.

 

  

  

  

We drove to Norfolk...(struggled a bit because I had my contacts...can't wear the damn things normally because of eye allegeries...) wore them anyway...finally found the place where the party was.  We were upstairs in the VIP section... free drinks all night.... word.  Jen ended up driving home since I had a handful of bourbon and diet cokes... it felt good to be with her, to hold her hand as we walked down the street freezing our asses off....

 

  

Yeah, I have a fucked up sense of humor when I have a buzz...

 

Did I mention that I wore girl boots...as in ones with a heel... and then come to find out Norfolk is undergoing a lot of construction.... I nearly broke my ankle like seventeen times.

 

I made Jen sit down on this random bench so I could get a picture...she was like, really oh my god come on...I'm freezing.  She's such a team player.

She drove me back to her place...after we stopped by the babysitters to get lil man...She put him in the bed and we talked for a bit...hung out... and let's just say that I found out that Jen is one of "those girls..." She puts out on the first date HAHAH...

It was a good night... a very good night....

Well

I'm still sick. Eww.

I talked to Jen and I'd say we're doing better.  I explained that I need to get my head screwed on right and it may take me a few days. Right now I'm tired and run down and don't have the energy...she understood.

I have an interview on Monday.  The company liked my resume, so I'll go in front of them then.  Exciting.

The company christmas party is Friday night...that should be interesting.

I had to end the assignments of six people today, I have four new people starting tomorrow.

Verizon called me today and offered me a early upgrade because they wanted to keep my biznazz...I'm getting a LG EnV 3 FOR FREE!!! score.  It will come in the mail soon.

Dad's R and R was approved so he'll take a vacation in February and meet up with mom in Greece.  She misses him some kind of bad. They will spend their 29th wedding anniversary in Greece...amazing.